Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Scale Obsessed? Not me.

I know that I should have anticipated this. In the back of my mind, when I first joined Weight Watchers, I fleetingly considered that I'd probably hit a plateau somewhere in my weight loss journey. But I figured by that point, I would have lost so much weight that I'd no longer care how quickly the remainder came off.

I am here to tell you, that is not the case.

When I foolishly imagined how cool I'd be when my weight loss slowed down, I failed to consider the fundamental truths of human existence:

Number 1: We ALWAYS want more. So what that I've lost nearly 70 pounds, I want to lose all 90. Heck, I could even go for an even 100. I want to be thin NOW.

Number 2: It's hard (no, make that downright impossible) to work at something for a long time and not receive positive reinforcement. It's frustrating to count points for an entire week, exercise religiously, pass up on all sorts of delicious treats, and step on the scale and see that you stayed the same. Or even worse, gained. After that happens for a couple of weeks, it's very, very tempting to give up, drive straight to the closest McDonald's and order chicken nuggets, fries, and a large vanilla milkshake.

All this is to say that I am going through a tiny little plateau right now. No big deal at all ;) Remember how I mentioned that I bought an electronic scale? Well, I'm obsessed with it. I weigh myself, my cats (Leo needs to lose a few pounds, by the way), my friends (those who dare to enter my household), my family members. Basically, everyone who enters my house is at risk. I have morphed into this crazy scale-obsessed excuse for a human being. Clearly, I need an intervention. I think some of my friends are planning to steal my scale.

All I can say is, let'em try!

I digress. I am currently hovering around 169.5 and 172. And let me tell you, there's a big difference between those numbers. 169 means that I'm officially in the 160s decade, less than 20 pounds over my healthy BMI weight. Evil 172, on the other hand, means that I've got over 20 pounds to lose and I'm really, really fat.

Well, I may exaggerate a little...

But seriously, I have been in the 170s decade since November. It's time to move on. I'm so sick of the 17 showing up on my scale. So, for the past three weeks, I've worked my butt off, stuck to my points, and what do I have to show for it? Not much, since I started at 173 and last week I weighed in at 173.5.

I am not quite at the McDonald's breaking point. But I'm close. Very close. And a vanilla milkshake sounds pretty good right about now.

But I am going to dig deep and try to have faith in Weight Watchers, in my body, and in the universe that it is possible for Katie to be thin. I know I've never seen it. I know that it's not coming easily. But I have to have faith that my body works like others. If I create a calorie deficit, the weight will come off.

And in the meantime, I'll try to appreciate how far I've come and stop weighing myself three times a day.


  1. Instead of weighing yourself 3x/day, you could weight yourself in the morning and then weigh all your food and drink. Because that's what causes most of the difference.

    I think it is really hard to not be experiencing dramatic results after losing such a large amount of weight. Maintenance is also hard because you are working but nothing changes. Serious motivation required.

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  3. Crap. For some reason, I'm unable to comment directly from Blogger. This is happening to me on a few different blogs. WEIRD.

    Anyway, this is Leah! :-)

    Please don't weigh yourself three times a day unless you can handle the fluctuations! Seriously, weekly weighing isn't even always "accurate".

    You're doing so great, and I know what you mean about the HUGE difference between 169 and 172, even though there isn't really much of a difference.

  4. OMG...please stop weighing yourself 3 times a day. For your own sanity. I know exactly where you are coming from as I hover between decades too, and when I am the higher one, I think i am FAT FAT FAT even though I am only a two pound difference from the other decade, hardly noticeable physically, but so overwhelming mentally.

  5. I actually hid my scale from myself for the past month and it's been great! Granted, I know i haven't lost any because I went to the dr the other day and had to get weighed, but the scale was really starting to piss me off, and I'm much happier without staring at it multiple times a day. If I do decide to get my butt back into WL mode, I will bring it out again... but until then no scale for me!