A little bit of faith...

I feel kind of sheepish for writing this post, but here goes. I'm going to stick to the new WW system--at least for a while.

After getting a full night of sleep last night (for the first time in a while), I rationally thought about this situation more this morning. How would I continue to go to meetings and use WW E-tools if I went by my own system? Essentially, I'd be paying $40 to get weighed in every week. Kind of a lot. Especially for a broke college graduate such as myself.

So, I went back to the WW office, armed with my weekly tracker and spoke for about 45 minutes with a different leader there. She was much more sympathetic and told me that, from the looks of my tracker, I was doing EVERYTHING right and the fruit I was eating should not have caused a gain. And then we talked about other factors (my previous big weight loss, water retention, etc) and we decided that my weight gain was probably not related to my performance last week. In other words, it's likely that I would have seen a similar result had I been doing to old Points system last week.

So, I'm going to have a little faith. WW would not design a program that makes you GAIN weight when you follow it. No way. That would be a terrible business model, for one thing. And it doesn't make sense. The last system worked well for me and I suspect that this one will too. One thing that has been bugging me is the "cost" of wine and processed foods, such as ice cream and bread. It was really hard to incorporate them when I tried to stick within my DPs. So, I'm going to use all the points at my disposal so that I can comfortably drink a glass of wine a night or have an ice cream sandwich. Feeling deprived only leads to quitting.

Here's the real thing. In the past few months, this blog has been a little too focused on losing weight, rather than the true purpose of my blog--getting healthy. Eating fruits and vegetables is HEALTHY and so is exercise and eating yummy foods in moderation. So from now on, I'm going to try to spend less time worrying about whether I lose weight and more time trying to lead a healthy and happy life. I've already lost a bunch of weight and I know that I already look good. Yes, losing the remaining 26 pounds will be a great accomplishment, but it's more important to try to make this a lifestyle change.

There are about a million fad diets that would help me to lose this remaining 25 pounds in a few months--including starvation diets, pills, etc...But is losing 25 pounds more important than being healthy and happy? No. And I want to lose this last chunk of weight in a sustainable way so that I can keep it off for the long run.

And I'm REALLY going to work on staying calm on my WI day. I promise.