Wednesday, June 9, 2010
After a VERY off-plan beginning of the week, I am determined to get back on track today. How, you may ask? By eating a mango of course :) In all due seriousness, I am going to try to eat more fresh fruits and vegetables and drink lots of WATER today. And I am going to Zumba, no matter what!!
Since I began WW at the end of March, my diet has gone very smoothly, with good losses each week, but this week I hit a problem--PMS and boy issues. Not a pretty combination, let me tell you. I spent the last few days eating the entire contents of my refrigerator, crying my eyes out, avoiding my neighbors, reading spy novels, and watching Gilmore Girls. I was craving McDonalds french fries and chicken nuggets, but I really didn't want to run into anyone I knew. So I stayed home and ate gross/ boring combinations of food: Special K out of the box, pasta with butter, bread with peanut butter, and asparagus (just because I really like roasted asparagus with olive oil).
Today I weighed in a day early, with heavier clothes, and on Day 2 of my period because I HATE myself. Despite my bad eating, I was shocked that the scale said I had gained 5.7 pounds!!! How can that be possible after only eating badly for 3 days? I burst into tears and the kind Weight Watchers receptionist offered to post No Weigh In and let me continue next week. She said, "You're not a true Weight Watcher member until you've cried on the scale at least once."
But I practically ran out of the Weight Watchers office. I was too ashamed to attend the meeting, which I know is completely counterproductive. However, I will return tomorrow in my standard Weight Watcher outfit, a skimpy sundress, and record the truth. I don't think that I actually gained 5.7 whole pounds--that would mean I ate over 10,000 extra calories which I don't think I did in less than 3 days. I probably gained a few pounds, which is a major drag because I am trying to lose so much weight. On the other hand, this is a lifestyle, not a diet. And I have to love myself enough to keep plugging along despite minor setbacks.
Which is why I will eat a mango today, go to Zumba (I hope that I have the energy to do it) and drink lots of water. It's amazing how much about healthy living is about your attitude. I swear, I felt more confident in myself when I first started the program and was embracing healthy choices, even though I was over 25 pounds heavier. I just have to summon the self confidence to move forward with my weight loss and exercise goals. I know that if I stick with this program I will eventually get where I want to be. Wish me luck, and I'll let you know how Zumba goes in my post tomorrow!